♥

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2012-01-23T09:15:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese/Lunar New Year! ^_^

It's the first day today. Meeting a lot of distant relatives that I haven't met before. Going to be awkward, but nvm, for the sake of angpaus lol. Got a lot of things on Friday when I was out shopping ^_^ Will blog about them soon when I'm not lazy ~ Not wearing my new clothes today lol. Going shopping again on Friday/Wed! Shopping so often because my aunt from HK is back ^_^

Going out to visit soon. Bye~!

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2012-01-19T11:36:00.001+08:00

Good day!

Haven't been blogging for a nearly a month now, so here I am ^_^
Everyone has already started college and everything..but I'm still here doing nothing productive. :( My college starts in March so I still have around 2 more months. Unfortunately nobody wants to hire me, I've been sending resumes after resumes ~_~ Oh well.

Happy New Year! Though I'm 19 days late, lol. Hopefully 2012 will be a prosperous year for everyone :) And hopefully I will be able to catch up with my new life in college in two months' time ~

Going to CNY shopping tomorrow ^_^ Will blog again soon. Goodbye!

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2011-12-14T08:08:00.004+08:00

I have come to realise my blog is pretty boring, really, the posts are short and more or less the same thing.

Because I have nothing interesting in my life right now to talk about. I rant a lot, but sometimes I get tired of it because it's always the same thing.

Some people just need to stop living in their fantasy world and grow up. I may not be much of an adult, I know, but I'm positive that I'm much better than them. This is reality, we've finished school and it's time to mature into an adult. No more being so dependent on your parents for everything - you have to work for it. You can't even manage your own time. Asking for your parents for so many things, this and that, have you ever thought they cost money? No, of course not. Because it's not your money. Please just stop being a spoilt brat and think of those around you.

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2011-12-10T18:08:00.002+08:00

We might be strangers from the start.

I don't know when you're going.
I don't know why you're going.
I don't know how you're going.

And most of all, I don't know where you're going.
Be safe.

Because for one day next time, we'll probably see each other again.

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2011-12-02T09:48:00.002+08:00

Good morning! SPM has finally ended two days ago 8D

Though i've been longing this day to come, but I realised I have nothing much to do lol. Go out once in a while perhaps. Or maybe watch dramas everyday until the results come out in February.

Or a part time job.

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2011-11-19T07:29:00.002+08:00

Good morning. It's 7.30am.

Good news : The first week of SPM is down! And I'm sorta happy with how I did ^^
Bad news : The science subjects are coming -_-

So we had BM, BI, Sejarah and Maths this week. I still have Moral, Physics, Chemistry and Biology to sit for ;A;

Going for a.math today hopefully it will help.
Good luck for the upcoming papers ~ :)

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2011-11-07T09:15:00.001+08:00

Good morning.

Today is a public holiday and it's raining already.
Time to study.

SPM is drawing nearer and nearer.
Good luck again!

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2011-10-25T11:54:00.000+08:00

I believe I can score well in my spm though it's a long way.

Hard work pays.
So if you think it's too late to improve, it's NEVER too late for ANYTHING.

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2011-10-23T07:20:00.001+08:00

I have gotten my schedule of arranged 9 days of torture. In this booklet.

SPM IS IN 21 DAYS.

Good luck everyone :)

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2011-10-21T16:53:00.001+08:00

I accidentally slept and wasted time. Arghhh fufufufufu.

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2011-10-15T15:36:00.004+08:00

Today was one of the worst day ever.

Okay I shouldn't say that. I graduated.

.................only from high school. Not University.

When I reached there, got ditched and was alone with my mother. More or less the same thing, they'd always dump me anyway so, whatever. Then went upstairs for the event. Wear the robe, blablabla, and then go into the hall.

After the event obviously everyone camwhored and everything. I got to take (2 to be bloody exact) pictures, one with Sook yi and another with Siew. And this friend of mine, offered to help me take a picture with ANYBODY at all for me with her camera. I appreciate that, but have you realised you offered everything except to take a picture with me?

I'm sorry today I'm just so upset at the end of the event, I just wanted to go home.
I'm sure you guys know who you are, I'm not trying to bash you all but it's just hurtful to see everyone having their friends and taking pictures and everything and being happy. Because I don't get to be like that. I'm just standing there being an awkward shit. I really wanted to take pictures and have a good time but it wasn't my camera and I can't be so demanding right?

Later I got a text telling me someone wanted to take a picture with me. But I had already left. Thank you so much, that text had made my day after that event :)

And now I have to tend to my blisters on my feet I got from the heels. -_-

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2011-10-09T08:13:00.001+08:00

Good morning~!

I'm in a fairly good mood today. Maybe it's because I have planned my day well. I will be productive today. Study in the morning, tuition in the afternoon, and then a family dinner later in the evening.

And because I have removed my braces. Yes, it's such a relief T_T Now I feel a space where my braces had been, lol, it feels so roomy. But I still have to wear my retainers, but the dentist is still making it so I'd have to go back to get it tomorrow.

It's odd, how come Tutor TV SPM English doesn't do Step by Wicked Step? They only do Catch Us If You Can. Yes, I watch Tutor TV. Problem? ^_^v

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2011-09-25T08:38:00.000+08:00

Good morning.

KMW was last night, everyone went except me ): I really wanted to go, but mum refused to let me because I need to study. Oh well ~

Teen top and VI came!!!!!!!!!! The next time they come I'm definitely going to go ^_^
K going to study Maths. Yes, it is necessary to study maths though it's easy. D<

Goodbai!

I forgot the number.

2011-09-23T18:12:00.001+08:00

You won't come and find me/talk to me if I weren't for you, wouldn't you?
Nah you won't.

Thanks anyway.

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2011-09-16T18:45:00.002+08:00

My short nap turned into a 2-hour-nap. Lol.

I'm going on a permanent hiatus after this until SPM is over. :(
Good luck to those who are taking govt exams :)

Bye.

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2011-09-16T13:48:00.002+08:00

Studied a little this morning.

Now that I've eaten I don't feel like studying anymore lol. I feel sleepy and comfortable ;A; Cannot happen, I must discipline myself.

Mum expects me to study 24/7, even if I just walk across the living room she'll be asking me why I'm not studying -_-

Taking a break off next Saturday going out with Pai ^_^ Accompanying her get her graduation stuff and do a little shopping. Speaking of graduation stuff I already got mine :D I hope it doesn't make me look overdressed ;A; because I look like a 30-year-old career woman in it.

Maybe I should take a short nap so I'll be more energized to study. :3
Goodbye ~

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2011-09-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

Finished 7 subjects so far : Chemistry and Physics left to complete next week. We're not having exams tomorrow because Chemistry papers are postponed to next week because of some celebration, and Friday is a public holiday, so we have four days off (3 days actually, but I'm skipping tomorrow) until Physics on Monday.

Bio was like shit, lol I keep making silly mistakes ): I am so careless. And add maths fuuuuuu, I can do it when I'm /not/ doing the exam. Probably because I am calm. During exam I panic like crazy and forget how to do. And I look at the question as if it's something I have never seen before in my entire life.

Really tired recently, during the exam week. I get less than 5 hours sleep and I only eat one meal a day. This is good I can lose weight LOL but I try to save as much time as I can for studying.

Going off now, goodnight!

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2011-09-01T10:34:00.002+08:00

Good morning.

It's September. It just feels like I've celebrated my 16th birthday. Which was 8 months ago.

My trial papers are waiting to make my life miserable in 4 days time. This holiday hasn't been that productive, admittedly. Planning to spend 80 percent of today studying my science subjects. Yes, I will.

Going to study now. Good day :)

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2011-08-29T16:58:00.005+08:00

Evening.

Just got back from doing a little shopping. Not very satisfied with Jusco's service. -_-
I bought two polo tees, supposedly RM80 each. But they were on 50% discount, so they're RM40 each. So I took two. Then paid. When I finished dealing with the cashier I read through my receipt again.

They charged me 80 for one and 40 for the other. Obviously I went to complain. They keep insisting the 80 one has no discount. Both are the exact same, only different colour. How absurd, only limited colours are entitled to the discount. So I made them pay me back my 80. After the whole lot of confusion, they decided to punch in my purchases again. End up, I only bought the discounted one. And they punched in wrongly again -_- and gave me 70% discount instead of the 50%. So it was down to only RM24. However, when they payed me back the money I payed extra, they gave me RM10 less lol. But I still had RM5 profit, and it was very dishonest of me. But I only found out when I went home.

Jusco needs to improve their calculations -_-

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2011-08-26T15:05:00.001+08:00

Hello.

Went to school everyday this week :) Productive yay! ^_^v
We painted patriotic banners today. It was so funny can die laughing.

Holidays have arrived. To be honest I'm not looking forward to it at all. Right after the holidays is already my trials.

Shall spend the week with my head buried in my books.
Selamat Hari Raya to my teachers and friends celebrating it :)

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2011-08-13T07:43:00.002+08:00

Good morning.

I don't know why I'm up before 7 on a Saturday morning.

Forgotten I had lock my blog for the past, what - 7 days? Or more? I don't even know why I did that and I don't feel like remembering why, either.

I realised when you read others' blog and when they talk about a particular someone, don't you feel like it's yourself? I mean, sometimes what they say matches your exact behaviour, and so you become all suspicious if the person's writing about you.

Well I do. Probably because I'm forever a girl with self-esteem so low I don't even know where it went. I'm never confident, I'm always caring about what others would think about me.

But now I don't really give a flying fuck. Because unbelievably, this task is tiring, and channels so much negative energy. So I just do what I'm supposed to do and get my ass done with this last year in school. If anyone's /you should know who you are/ going to step on my head, well I'm just going to ignore you lol because you are too pathetic and not worth my time. So go ahead, say what you want and do what you please. Because I don't even give a damn.

But even if the person mentioned in those posts might be me in one of them, I'm really sorry for whatever I did. Probably I wasn't thinking back then, but if you're going to continue doing it then be my guest.

Because I have more things to worry about than your unreasonable rants.

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2011-08-05T14:18:00.003+08:00

Good afternoon.

I just got back from school, (well not really, it was quite a while ago) and the first thing I did was watch the MV. I've been restraining myself so badly from the teasers and etc for the whole week because of discipline I've promised my mum ;-;

I am responsible and I know my responsibility and if anything's going to hold me back and give me a mark for being responsible, so be it. Because you're not having any idea about it and you know NOTHING about responsibility and therefore you have no right, (nor knowledge, perhaps?) to tell me what I have to do. It's okay, I'll just tolerate like I always do, because I stan the quote What goes around comes around. I'm so very patiently waiting for that to come back to you, and hit you hard in the head, so you'll be slapped out of your own rude, and pathetic world, thinking you're the leader in everything, and that you have power on other people's lives. You need to back off and be nicer to others. If you're not respecting me, respect yourself, at least. And you don't even know people hate you - til now. You just think it's something in the past, and refuse to admit it. So I see why you are like how you are now. I don't hate you, I pray you will try to become better in the future. But even if you ARE reading this now, you'd probably thing this is a pathetic excuse for a post and will do nothing to affect you, no?

Whoever reads this do not be vain :) Because it's not about you ^_^v
Because the person I'm talking about does not read my blog ^^v

Sorry for the unpleasant tone. I just needed somewhere to vent my frustrations. And so here it is.

This week has been another dreadful week. Time is flying and the two exams of my life are approaching.

Good luck!

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2011-07-31T15:41:00.000+08:00

Ignored as usual, on a daily basis.

Hmmmm. Numb to it already, really.

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2011-07-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

Okay forget my last post.

It's not fair for others if I always rant and talk about irrelevant things in life in most of my posts, which, in reality are more or less the same thing.

I'm going to watch Mr Popper's Penguins tomorrow!
And lets hope tomorrow's schedule will be filled to the rim, the heavier the better ;)

Goodnight!

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2011-07-29T20:30:00.001+08:00

I asked you first, and when someone else comes and ask you, why can't you push them away? Don't you know how to? And you, you fucking KNOW I did that and YET YOU STIL HAD to ask her, isn't it? What is so fucking difficult?

Why does everyfuckingone want to push me away? Why?

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2011-07-22T19:53:00.003+08:00

It's not right to do certain things...

...but we've all sinned in many different ways, haven't we?

Just a slight mistake we make, and it's a sin.

I just don't know why there's so much drama. Drama isn't going to solve any problem, all it can do is make everything worst off.

I like honest people. Their honesty tells me how they really feel, and gives me a solution on how I can change myself for the better as well.

I don't want everyone to be humble, because being humble all the time won't take you anywhere. And if people hate you for being honest, (of course, don't be too honest at times) then they're just being childish the way they are.

People need to grow up, you and me. Growing up is something tough, and our generation is a stubborn and selfish generation. Myself, too.

Speaking of honesty, I always avoid this in life. It's because I know some truths hurt and bring nothing but hatred later. I don't want to lose any friend, and so I've tried to keep them in myself. Words sometimes speak louder than actions. I respect my friends, and therefore I don't intend to hurt them in any way. But sometimes I just can't hold it in and it comes blurting out automatically.

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2011-07-16T08:34:00.004+08:00

Good morning!

Today is a new day ^o^
I want to make my weekend as productive as possible.
A lot of notes, homework and studying awaits me today :)

Dying to watch HP7! But I would have to wait until SPM is over :(
Worth the wait ^o^

Have a great weekend!

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2011-07-15T21:39:00.002+08:00

Hello ~

Recently we have been having seminars/teknik menjawab(s) throughout the week. English, History and Maths. And as usual our school's favourite thing to do, is sort us out according to our grades/select students that will attend the teknik menjawab.

Stop telling me my position because I know my bloody position. I'm the president so what? I have to take the fall for everything? No, it's not that way. That is why a fucking CLUB exists. To work together. But no.

Every fucking thing also,

'' ....because you're the president. ''

Because I am the motherfucking president. That's why. THAT IS WHY, ISN'T IT? If the teacher gives you the job, then bloody do it. If you don't need my help, (other than MAKING me do the fucking job), then don't get me involved and tell me,

BECAUSE I AM THE PRESIDENT.

Don't be absurd and stupid k.

Just say so if you don't want to do something. Don't turn around and say, I where got!, I don't la, and whatever shit when I tell you the truth. If so, then don't say something you won't do. Simple as that. Because in certain cases, words can't be taken back.

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2011-07-09T21:20:00.004+08:00

Hello ♥

Just got back from Biology class, bathed, and blog-hopped.

I read everyone's blog. Well technically not everyone, just those on my links.
Everyone has a different story, and every story has a different ring to it.

How Amelia's dramatic post later turned into something funny (well to me, at least), Joe Yee's emotional, but dead blog, Gwen's desire for a friend, Sara's bravery, and Vivien's flailing around because of dimsum, ♥ and so on.

The colours of these people's lives thrill me. It makes me feel how they feel, just by reading what they write. Some has problems, some blog with joy, and some with sadness. All these emotions just come at me. Especially those with joy, it makes me long so hard for it. I want joy so much it's indescribable. ♥

All I want, is to be happy! As simple as that. Happiness may be contagious sometimes. For instance, reading a happy post. It makes me happy instantly. Especially Vivien's blog! Her post is always filled with exclamation marks, hearts, and happy stuff. I love reading her blog because the joy inside comes into me as well. :) And her friends are great, I'm sure, based on how she describes them so cutely haha.

Like Gwen, I want a friend as well. Someone who can listen. Of course I have one or two, but someone who really listens, is a whole new story. It removes the burden off my shoulders. I appreciate the friends I have now, of course I do! They are a part and parcel of my life. And there is a reason for their existence.

I believe everything happens for a reason, they definitely do.
Have a good weekend!

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2011-07-07T17:35:00.001+08:00

Evening!

I completed my add math project yesterday but I printed a friend's one in school today because she brought it to school and I didn't. And I'm kedekut 'cause I don't want to use my printer ink. So I took advantage of the school's instead. :3

Class now - bye!

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2011-07-06T21:51:00.002+08:00

People that lead perfect lives without any family problems and other shit just don't know how to appreciate what they have before it's gone.

Yes, every single one of you out there, even if you think you're not like that, you are.

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2011-07-06T18:41:00.004+08:00

Having a tough time lately.

Correction, forever having a tough time.

Yes, that sounds more suitable.

I'm so sick of wanting to rant, being the one who's over-sensitive, and making myself look completely like a dumb idiot.

If you guys don't want to talk to me/interact with me/look at me/respond to me/answer me/do anything with me.........................................then it's ok lah. Cuz I don't want to look like a complete fool trying to be the enthusiastic one. It's so embarassing, jsyk.

I'm supposed my readers are also bored with what I am saying. Because I repeat what I say occasionally. Aren't you guys bored? I'm so good at repeating I'm even bored myself.

It's forever rants and being sensitive.
Even if I do not blog it, I rant to someone. And I'm pretty much assured the people that listen to me get bored of what I have to say, too. They're 80% the same thing every single time.

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2011-07-03T17:05:00.002+08:00

Good evening!

Apparently some schools have no school tomorrow because of the larian event yesterday. But my school...... -_- Yes, we have school.

Left with a few pictures to print and two more moral essays to write for my Kerja Kursus. And Add Maths! I only have until Friday. T__________T

Hope I can study and do homework and etc etc in time. Forever not enough time lol. The next two days going to be very hectic. Tomorrow school until 5, then tuition from 7 til 8. Tuesday, school til 3, then tuition from 7 to 10. u______u

Have a great week!

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2011-07-01T12:59:00.002+08:00

I just came back from open day at school.

As usual, my class teacher kept insisting I come to her extra class and do her module. And then poof~! I can get an A+. She is so funny -.-

Anyway then before we left I looked around for Faridah so I could check my Moral work. Then go cray with friends a while, then went for breakfast. Then Jusco to get groceries. I got new school shoes! Finally. My old one is so worn out that the sponge is showing, and there is a hole in the front. My new ones are bigger and wider hehe and they make my leg look mini! Lol.

So we bought groceries, and bla bla bla. Then there was this woman infront of us at the queue for the cash register who bought a whole trolley of groceries filled to the rim. Rich woman. Her bag and wallet were both Louis Vuitton and her phone was a Blackberry. Okay, maybe this isn't considered as rich but to me it is lol because I am a cheapskate. Then she didn't know how to buy a fruit so she didn't put it in a plastic bag and weigh it first and instead she brought the fruit to the cashier -_-?

Tomorrow is Larian 1 Malaysia. Heard there is kebangsaan co-curricular marks if you go. Still considering if I should. I'm only interested in the marks, after all..

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2011-06-26T17:11:00.004+08:00

I absolutely can't stand people who are spoilt and so ungrateful about what they have now.

Just because you're /perfect/ to yourself doesn't give you any right to lord over other people. They may not be like what you think you are, but you are not perfect. Nobody is. Everyone have their own respective flaws. You should be thankful for what you are blessed with, and not be so demanding. Looking down on 'weaker' people does not make you any greater. Why do you care about others if you're not totally perfect.

Or maybe you think you are.
Though you might not show it physically, but it's easy to tell you're doing it mentally. Or sometimes your actions might just slip and you accidentally end up showing it.

So some people are not pretty, or handsome. Or good-looking. If everyone in the world is pretty and handsome, then everyone would be models, and everyone would think they are too brilliant for each other. And intelligence. Some people just can't study. If everyone is a genius, no one is going to bake our bread, sweep our streets, and sell the food we eat everyday.

To be honest, if some people are not great enough for you, then just don't get yourself involved with other people. It's much better, for you and for everyone. Maybe you think you are one in a million because you think you are special in some certain things, but that's not how it works.

It's not completely right for me to talk about people who are like this. Maybe I am one like this myself. But I do not know. I hope I won't be. This message is not directed to anyone in particular - just so you know. I just really don't like these kind of people whose hobbies include looking down on 'weaker' people.

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2011-06-25T13:46:00.006+08:00

Good afternoon!

Just came back from Sports' Day ^^

So happy! Today was great. Ruby is the new champion! Though Amethyst lost, and even got last place, it's ok. I hope we do well better next year :)

Today's weather was beautiful. Not too hot, so it was bearable at the field. Last year onwards our major rival shifted to Sapphire, they hate us so much.... -_- I don't hate them, but some of them are so confident of winning...

Even so, there's no need to insult Amethyst la. I mean, your house didn't excel in sports it's not Amethyst's fault. If can, you go and participate in the events la. But neither of us won the title champion anyway..

At tarik tali today we (ruby, emerald, amethyst and topaz) were cheering for Topaz like crazy. Because we didn't want Sapphire to win XD In the end Topaz won! I think it's because of our cray cray cheering and shouting, and the people who tarik are much bigger in size compared to Sapphire. But Sapphire did well ^^ They won Sukantara ~

Emerald won perbarisan. I love Ruby's formation! Airline + James Bond lol.

I'm expecting some bashing for Amethyst tonight, considering we're champions for idk how many years lol but yes consecutively, and we suddenly dropped to last place. But whatever lah those people who bash are people who don't even contribute to their own houses ^o^

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2011-06-24T17:11:00.002+08:00

Mochi ♥

Hi! The picture above is Henry, a person I love very much, hehe.

The past week has been very boring because they've been preparing for Sports' Day tomorrow! Can't wait for tomorrow :3 My last sports day in school ~

Anyway, I feel like saying /a few/ words about people who don't like korean pop. Not using the word ''haters'' because it's a little overrated. I don't encourage you to like kpop just because I do. But all I ask for is for you guys to not insult it, is that too much to ask? Some people say the band members are chosen through their looks, not talent. I don't fully disagree, it is true by ten percent. Though, the members have gone through training. I suggest you don't comment on things when you don't know how they work. Do you know how they are chosen? Do you know why there are so many members in a group? Why some of them don't get to sing in certain songs, but get their turns later? I don't think so.

And how others comment on excessive plastic surgery done on them. Mind you, not everyone in the korean pop industry has gone through plastic surgery, only some. Even so, do you know most of the youngsters these days need to look good to actually get employed by agencies? To achieve their dream? No. Of course not.

And how they are gay. This word is forever used to describe korean guys. I'm sorry please don't call them gay. It's so offensive even if you think they look gay. Gay as in what - pretty boy style? There's no need to call them gay.

Nope I'm not mad, I dislike the people who insult k-pop for the sake of it when they don't even know how it's like. To sum it up, if you don't like, then just don't like. Nobody asked you to like it anyway. So there's no necessary reason to insult. I didn't say this because I am a fan, I just think it's not fair for certain people to do that. I'm not that into English or Chinese pop music, but I don't insult it either.

People always ask me why I like korean pop, when I don't understand what the lyrics mean. You don't need understand lyrics to enjoy music ^^

Going to spend the rest of this week being productive (: Having maths at a friend's place on Monday, since there's no school.

Have a great weekend!

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2011-06-19T17:04:00.005+08:00

Good evening.

Sorry for the previous post. Just had to express my feelings. Thank you to those whom I've talked to. They've made me feel so much better, and increased my self-esteem (:

Anyway, recently I got my watch. I sent my pink Casio to fix but they couldn't, so they gave me a new one.

Neon yellow ^^

The past week has been semi-productive, I would say.....studied a bit of Chem and Bio. ^^ Will attempt to continue this habit lol. Sukantara just ended, and my whole body ached like crazy ever since.

Received Pooi Yee's letter, finally!

The Chunji name tag she gave me for motivation :3 Thank you!

Despite the busy schooling days and studying, I still find time to read my Alexandra Potter collection. Started off with Calling Romeo, Sara's birthday present to me last year ^^

Happy Father's Day!

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2011-06-17T17:30:00.005+08:00

I just realised my life is like shit.

I'm not overreacting or whatever.

I am dead serious.

Wherever I turn, whenever I turn, whatever I do, there is bound to be some shit in my way. I am so sick and tired. People just don't understand me because they just don't. Everyone comes from a complete family. Sometimes I wonder why and how I lost someone I love so much. That was years ago, when I was 13. I am 17 now. I'm supposed to be his big girl, performing kick-ass at this stage.

I just can't.
Sometimes I just cry alone, because I want to express my feelings the way I did 10 years ago. When I was just a kid. There is no age limit when it comes to expressing your feelings.

I don't even need to build emotions to cry. My eyes prickle voluntarily and fat droplets of tears just roll down automatically.

I try to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good friend, a good person. This year. I've changed so much. I'm sorry if I have done wrong to anyone.

Instead, I get shit in return. To be honest, I have attempted suicide so many times I've lost count. How was I stopped? Something got into my way. Thoughts of leaving my family alone, my mother. I love her so much I don't know how to express it. The person who brought me into this world, raise me up, and now, raising my brother and I alone. Thinking of what she has gone through make me so sad, I can't even cry. I can't do anything.

And I have to make matters worse for her. She's doing it alone, and I'm of no help to her. No help at all.

I'm not good in my studies. To sum it up - I'm not good at anything. At all.

Every now and then I cry, not knowing how to solve any fucking thing. I have no friends, none. All they just do, is hurt my feelings. I forever try to make them comfortable, be polite, have manners, and everything. They're the total opposite. The total fucking opposite.

And the worst part is - they don't even realise when they've said something that triggered me. Well of course I can't expect an apology, or words of sympathy when noone is anywhere near realising what they've said is hurtful. Sometimes I really don't know how to react when I am in this situation.

I'm really really really really sorry if I have really offended any of my friends. This year I have learned so much, gained so much. I want to change, and love my friends. I do it, but looks like it's definitely too late now.

Why can't everyone stop this fucking drama and just be honest with their family, friends - their life. I just don't see the point in hurting each other, and make other people jealous and hurt for no apparent reason.

But no one cares anyway haha. They keep saying their life is totally fucked up but believe me - their lives are perfect.

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2011-06-12T09:13:00.002+08:00

12th post on the 12th of June ^o^ Lol.

Today's already Sunday -_- We have school tomorrow hur.
And I'm here, /still/ trying to rush my homework. Forever last minute.

I hope the coming week passes by quickly so I'll be able to get used to the schooling mood again lol. We have sports day coming up soon ~

U-Kiss was okay, at least I got to see the boys live ^^ Kiseop and Dongho lost their phones hur. But it's said that Kissmes found their phones back. ....God knows what they did with it lolol. I didn't bring my cam so no pics or videos u__u

Going to cut my nails and etc for school -_-
Bye. Happy schooling!

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2011-06-09T10:08:00.000+08:00

Just finished my English essay ~
Feels good. :3

Lately I've been getting hungry really quick...even if I just had a heavy meal. Like every 30 minutes I get hungry. I have this strong feeling I have tapeworms.... e_e

No, really.

Kbye.

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2011-06-06T09:40:00.003+08:00

Good morning!

Up early today, as usual, forever up early during the holidays. Stalked Henry's twitter from his first tweet cuz I was bored lol. This week is going to be busy because I basically spent the whole of last week being unproductive -_-

This week, I have homework, tuition, discussion, studying, appointments, and U-Kiss! ^^ Can't wait for U-Kiss event hehe can troll with everyone again ~

Laura uploaded our group pic on facebook ): I look so bald lmao. Learnt a lesson to never clip fringe anymore.....when I'm out, at least. I need a haircut anyway ~

Getting ready to go out for discussion with my group. Goodbye!

Have a lovely week <3

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2011-05-30T16:07:00.002+08:00

It's been long since I updated ^o^

School holidays just started :3 So happy, but have to spare some time studying and doing homework T_T

Anyway, went to Hari Belia Negara 2 days ago to watch SJ-M! ^^
We got a really good spot T______T So happy sobs. My pics are not that HQ..but my fancam is better :3 Pics are already up on my facebook, will upload my fancams soon hehe.

It's so surreal, they're so near..first time seeing them so near sobs, I wasn't even that near at Super Show 2 T___T

Okay gotta get to class soon ~ byebye.

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2011-05-22T20:54:00.002+08:00

Hello ~

Last paper tomorrow - Physics 3 :3
Well to be precise we still have Civic and PJ on Thursday... -_-

2 weeks break coming in a weeks' time! Can't wait ^o^
Though I have to spend some time studying ~

Sorry will update if I have something to blog about :l

Goodnight!

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2011-05-08T17:52:00.003+08:00

Happy Mother's Day!

We're going out to celebrate later. :) I still haven't revised English yet...exam is tomorrow. -_- Shall try to make us of tonight and the spare time before the exam tomorrow.

I love SISTAR19's Ma Boy :) It's a really nice song! I've been listening it repeatedly.. It's korean though, so non-korean pop fans might not like it.

2 more weeks of torture to go! I hope I have the willpower to go through this period ~

Goodbye!

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2011-05-07T18:33:00.005+08:00

Hello!

Oh I forgot to mention we celebrated my brother's 11th at Ben's @ Pavilion last wednesday ^^

Don't know what salad lol.

Breakfast with Vivienne.

Diagnostics started today with History paper. :( When it ends, May will be gone. Time flies when exam period approaches. Good luck to those who are taking diagnostics and midterms! ^-^

Going out for dinner at Da On Korean Cuisine at Pavilion again hehe. Goodbye!

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2011-04-30T15:02:00.004+08:00

Good evening ^-^

I usually have nothing to write, I just update for the sake of it. e_e

So anyway, I didn't have school yesterday because it was Hari Anugerah Cemerlang, and I wasn't involved. 8D No school for four days straight - Friday to Monday!

But History test starts next Saturday, which marks the beginning of diagnostics that swallows the whole of May e________e there goes another month.

SPM is coming omg I rant and procrastinate so much I have to stop. I jinx myself so I get motivated to study - this shows how desperate and pathetic I really am. >_> Tomorrow is Sunday. I am planning to study tomorrow.. hopefully my plans does not end up failing lol.

I spent yesterday out watching Red Riding Hood :D I'm late I know e_e There wasn't a lot of people watching with us though, lol probably because the movie was out for quite sometime. And guess what? This morning I saw a critic's review of THAT MOVIE in the paper. -_- She basically trashed the movie with a whole load of harsh words and that sort. She even said it was such a lousy movie because Catherine Hardwicke directed it. And plus, the article took up a whole page. I find it such a waste of precious space. But whatever, I find the movie not too bad.

Oh and when I came back, I spent the evening watching the Royal Wedding. ^^ For a moment there the ring couldn't fit lol, I think it's because the middle of Kate's finger was a bit plump. I miss Lady Diana ): It was sweet of Will to make sure his mother was part of a wedding :) There was an empty seat reserved for his mother.

I'm going out to get Diary of a Wimpy Kid novels for my brother. My mum makes me buy one book by one book, but when I tell her to buy the set, she refuses and start giving me weird excuses. Parents..

Have a good evening!

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2011-04-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

I am still sick - since Sunday. There is a huge clog in between my nose and throat T_T

Good thing I can't taste anything, I can't taste the yucky medicine I have to take. 8D

This weekend is going to be busy!

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2011-04-11T02:46:00.001+08:00

Hello.

It is now 2.47am.
I am sick and have been rolling around on my bed for the past 2 hours.

This is torture. T_________________T

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2011-04-05T16:27:00.003+08:00

Hello.

I'm not supposed to be here, but I succumbed to temptation -_-
Am typing in the dark.

I shall get myself a cute scheduler so my days won't be so moody and disorganized lol.

Shall go off soon, I must keep my promise to mummy I won't go online too long. ):

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2011-04-04T17:04:00.002+08:00

Today was tiring T_T
Somehow Sunday nights are pressurizing, because we have school the next day. But weeknights are less pressurizing, idek why.

I keep falling asleep at school today. Nothing to keep me awake. Especially bio, my teacher loves to go really quick and so it resulted into the whole class not being able to understand -_-

My whole body is aching right now, I didn't even stay back at school for training!

History classes starts this month! It has been one and a half years since I've last went back to my old Form 3 tuition center. I hope I will be able to concentrate!

Have a lovely week ♥
Goodbye!

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2011-04-02T10:19:00.003+08:00

I deleted all my posts because I felt my past posts were way too childish and -___- yeah crappy.

So anyway, it's the weekend again.
My life has been experiencing difficulties lately. Too many conflicts.

Being me is such a pain at times. But I have to learn to look on the brighter side of things. ...Sometimes things just don't go your way. All you have to do, is make it work.

Today is the 2nd day of the month of April. April please be good. Let me study hard and manage life well. Goodbye!